Drama.
Half-truths.
Sympathy.
Forgiveness.
Being angry.
Being jealous.
Competition.
My general attitude.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
It's Almost Time
Financial aid is through.
Schedule is (almost) perfect.
Room is clean.
Bulletin board is about 85% done.
Door decs need to be hung.
Family drama is at its height.
Friend drama has begun.
Stress has definitely kicked in.
The overwhelming feeling of a make-or-break semester has consumed my body and I am just ready to get things started.
I have a feeling I am going to regret that statement later.
Schedule is (almost) perfect.
Room is clean.
Bulletin board is about 85% done.
Door decs need to be hung.
Family drama is at its height.
Friend drama has begun.
Stress has definitely kicked in.
The overwhelming feeling of a make-or-break semester has consumed my body and I am just ready to get things started.
I have a feeling I am going to regret that statement later.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Two Things
1. Velveeta Cheese is weird. Is it even cheese? I think it's like Kevlar- completely man made and not natural at all.
2. I am addicted to Bananagrams. I've lost about 6 hours in the past three days because I've been playing on Facebook. It's a sickness.
2. I am addicted to Bananagrams. I've lost about 6 hours in the past three days because I've been playing on Facebook. It's a sickness.
"Things get hairy when a small group of mixed genders get lost in the world together."
I can understand where my friend is coming from when he says this. Things always get complicated when men and women are confined to a small space for an extended period of time. This may be an idealized view, but with the group I am thinking of going with, I do not foresee any problems. A love connection between anyone is completely out of the question, although, arguments are not. I think if we go with a plan and a free spirited attitude, everything will be fine!
Let's hope that my friend gets over his apprehensions and he decides to come with us. Bethany and I are also hoping for one or two specific people to come with us on our journey... we'll see how that goes too! The chances that they will join us are slim to none, but we'll keep a positive attitude until they give us a solid no.
Let's hope that my friend gets over his apprehensions and he decides to come with us. Bethany and I are also hoping for one or two specific people to come with us on our journey... we'll see how that goes too! The chances that they will join us are slim to none, but we'll keep a positive attitude until they give us a solid no.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
1,378 Miles
Short back story:
My friends Evan, Eric, and Marc came over for dinner last week and at some point in the evening Evan dropped this bomb on us: "Don't you ever just want to get in the car and just drive?" I pushed the thought to the back of my mind for the next few days, but revisited it when I was talking with a woman from school about my summer plans. This past summer she took a road trip with her boyfriend and said that it was one of the best weeks of her life. They did what Evan wanted to do- just drove. Bringing along a tent and a camp stove and conveniently forgetting their map at home, they drove until they found a place they wanted to explore. No rules, no expectations, no plans.
My questions:
Spontaneity is definitely not a word you would use to describe me. I make lists, I have plans, I have goals written out for the next five years of my life. Yet, when Anelise was telling me about this trip I was entranced. How amazing would it be to go out in the world and just be? What would I learn? What would I experience? And most importantly, how much fun would it be?!?
Our plan:
Bethany and I are going to go on a road trip this summer. However, instead of driving aimlessly, we want to go to the Grand Canyon. If we take I5 through California, it will be 1,378 miles from my house to the edge of the Canyon (thanks Google Maps). We would love for our good friend and trip instigator Evan to come along. However, the issues that would go along with that are hefty enough for their own blog entry.
I'm really excited to go now. I almost can't wait for July when we begin our journey across the West coast. It is going to be EPIC.
My friends Evan, Eric, and Marc came over for dinner last week and at some point in the evening Evan dropped this bomb on us: "Don't you ever just want to get in the car and just drive?" I pushed the thought to the back of my mind for the next few days, but revisited it when I was talking with a woman from school about my summer plans. This past summer she took a road trip with her boyfriend and said that it was one of the best weeks of her life. They did what Evan wanted to do- just drove. Bringing along a tent and a camp stove and conveniently forgetting their map at home, they drove until they found a place they wanted to explore. No rules, no expectations, no plans.
My questions:
Spontaneity is definitely not a word you would use to describe me. I make lists, I have plans, I have goals written out for the next five years of my life. Yet, when Anelise was telling me about this trip I was entranced. How amazing would it be to go out in the world and just be? What would I learn? What would I experience? And most importantly, how much fun would it be?!?
Our plan:
Bethany and I are going to go on a road trip this summer. However, instead of driving aimlessly, we want to go to the Grand Canyon. If we take I5 through California, it will be 1,378 miles from my house to the edge of the Canyon (thanks Google Maps). We would love for our good friend and trip instigator Evan to come along. However, the issues that would go along with that are hefty enough for their own blog entry.
I'm really excited to go now. I almost can't wait for July when we begin our journey across the West coast. It is going to be EPIC.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Appearances are often deceiving
I have three good friends. We met at church this summer and became "The Sistahs." We had great fun whenever we were together, which was often. We hung out with a group of boys and became one big group who spent most weekends watching movies, playing games, and having the most random conversations you could think of.
Over the summer, we were inseparable. Then the rain started to fall and so did our friendship. I feel like it started off with my bad attitude. I became bitter towards one of my sistahs, and it poisoned our group faster than I could have even imagined. I conveniently forgot to invite her to events and when she would join us, I would ignore her or treat her differently than everyone else. I justified it by saying she was lying (which she was) and intentionally leaving me and only me out (which she was).
In addition to this sistah, I had an issue with another one as well. I quickly became irritated with her pitiful attitude, and her constant need for attention. I also couldn't handle having to coddle her and repeatedly give her positive reinforcements. I'm not at all interested in treating a 20 year old like she's 12, and unfortunately, my lack of interest and patience began to ruin this friendship as well.
I find it interesting how on the outside, things can appear to be perfect. Four women can appear to be best friends but the inside of their friendship is full of lies, backstabbing and hateful gossip.
However, my attitude has begun to change. After listening to the sermon at church today, I decided I no longer wanted to have a bitter heart. Hating someone takes just as much energy as loving someone, and yet the outcome is in no way positive. The road to forgiveness is long and bumpy, but I'm going to travel it, to not only forgive those that have hurt me, but also to forgive myself for hurting others.
Over the summer, we were inseparable. Then the rain started to fall and so did our friendship. I feel like it started off with my bad attitude. I became bitter towards one of my sistahs, and it poisoned our group faster than I could have even imagined. I conveniently forgot to invite her to events and when she would join us, I would ignore her or treat her differently than everyone else. I justified it by saying she was lying (which she was) and intentionally leaving me and only me out (which she was).
In addition to this sistah, I had an issue with another one as well. I quickly became irritated with her pitiful attitude, and her constant need for attention. I also couldn't handle having to coddle her and repeatedly give her positive reinforcements. I'm not at all interested in treating a 20 year old like she's 12, and unfortunately, my lack of interest and patience began to ruin this friendship as well.
I find it interesting how on the outside, things can appear to be perfect. Four women can appear to be best friends but the inside of their friendship is full of lies, backstabbing and hateful gossip.
However, my attitude has begun to change. After listening to the sermon at church today, I decided I no longer wanted to have a bitter heart. Hating someone takes just as much energy as loving someone, and yet the outcome is in no way positive. The road to forgiveness is long and bumpy, but I'm going to travel it, to not only forgive those that have hurt me, but also to forgive myself for hurting others.
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